I am currently sitting in my hotel room here in Delft, darkness has fallen and the blue and yellow sign outside that shouts IKEA! Shines bright against the dark black, blue of the sky. It’s been a quiet day, grey, cold and wet, so I thought I would take the opportunity to read and rather proudly I managed to complete an entire book and enjoying it so much, I now want to take some words, ideas and meanings from it. (‘Dirt on Delight – Impulses that form Clay’. Click here.)
But now I am having a small panic attack as I have no note book in which to do this. Yes I could use my laptop, though writing helps me to remember my thoughts, yes I could use the one that I use for my ‘Reflective Notes’ and yes I have the one that I have been using for my ‘Option Research’, oh yes and there is also the one I use as my general ‘to-do’ notebook………. Soooooooooooo much anxiety over a notebook, What is wrong with me? And now I’m beginning to wonder if I am MA-ing all wrong and that I have no methodology or process and I am generally feeling very lost in it all. I procrastinate so much that I am fixating about a notebook??????? What is my problem? Calm down Bev-ley……..deep breaths.
I have now been away for 5 weeks, sitting in front of the computer for 8 hours or more everyday, I think it is taking its toll. I know I am getting paid for it and the majority of the time I love my job (though not as much as I love my clay) but I am exhausted. It feels as though the job is such a huge distraction from the clay and all things MA. Of course I give 110% when I am there and of course I have to earn money. Balance between my MA and needing money, when the job that I know and makes me that money takes me away from everything, it is not going to be an easy road. What to do? What is a ‘wanna be’ potter going to do?…..
Looking for that ‘Work – Life’ balance……
Bev Sommerville Ceramics 